You think?

•01/07/2013 • 1 Comment

You think you can use my body, discipline it, abuse it, punish it, seduce it, bring it to ecstasy. Just because you want to.

You think you can love my breasts, caress them, fondle them, bite them, press my nipples so hard between your fingers that I am brought to my knees. Just because you want to.

You think you can rub my ass gently, raise welts that will last for weeks, admire the marks of your possession. Just because you want to.

You think you can tease my lips with a kiss, hammer my throat with your cock, fuck my mouth until it is full of your come. Just because you want to.

You think to keep me aroused, in heat, wanting the pleasure, wanting the words of approval, wanting the pain because it’s what pleases you.

You want me compliant, submissive, begging, screaming.

That’s what you want?

You who are so, so good with words.

That’s what you want me to want?

Make me.

Morning face

•12/23/2012 • Leave a Comment

Morning Face

“I see your morning face,
I see your morning face.
I see what no one’s supposed to,
I see you naked and true – I do…”

Small Sins, Morning Face

This is your morning face, so different without the mask of animation worn by your waking self.  More angular, I think, cheek and jaw more sharply defined.  Yet, the sensual man you are is revealed in the warm, full lips, replete with your unconscious vitality and unconstrained by thought or desire.

You are self-contained, even in sleep; quiet, but not at all restful. You look remote. I realize that it is as the song says, that I am seeing what no one is supposed to, that this is you, naked and true. And that, as intimately as I know you, you are a mystery to me.

But if nothing else, you have taught me that mysteries do not need to be solved to be enjoyed.

Questions and Answers

•12/02/2012 • 1 Comment

Not my usual post and not timely either, but this was inspired by a set of questions posted here several months ago (his answers are here and here).  The poser of the questions wanted one-word, yes-or-no answers, but I find that an almost impossible task. This is the  I-can’t-help-but-explain-the-answer version.

  1. Eyes or lips?   I don’t look at a man’s lips but I’d rather a man have talented lips than pretty eyes.
  2. Give or get?     I love giving oral but I prefer getting fucked.
  3. Fuck or be fucked?   I’d almost always rather be fucked.
  4. Direct or indirect?     Direct. I have no subtlety and am prone to misread social cues.
  5. Implicit or explicit?     Explicit. See above. Plus I love dirty talk.
  6. Teach or learn?     Learn. I want to be corrupted.
  7. Memory or fantasy?     If you mean to get off to, fantasy. Memories get kind of  shredded around the edges and fantastical in the fringes after a while anyway.
  8. New or old?      Experiences? Lovers? Clothes? Open to new ones, comfortable with old.
  9. Teased or sated?     I’ve never been with anyone who has had that kind of patience (or interest, to be honest), so I can’t say how I feel about being teased. I know I definitely like being sated. And sated. And, again, sated.
  10. Public or private?     Private. Always. Sometimes very non-transgressive public stuff is okay but not much.
  11. Loud or quiet?    Quiet. Except when I’m not.
  12. Lightness or darkness?     Philosophically speaking, or literally? Philosophically, I like basically light but leavened with a good pinch of darkness. Literally, I prefer light.
  13. Hot or cold?     Hot. You’re kidding, right?
  14. Wet or dry?     Wet. Except if I end up with the wet spot.
  15. Audio or video?     Is written a choice? No? Then I prefer hearing words to seeing pictures, but it’s not an either/or preference.
  16. Music or not?  (and then… what kind of music?)     Not. I am way too distractable.
  17. Incense or candles?     Neither.
  18. Dressed or nude?      Start out dressed, then nude.
  19. Casual or dressy?     Dressy; it’s kind of a role playing thing. Also a self-esteem thing. Casual is good, too, but works better with a different kind of vibe.
  20. Fucking or oral?     Fucking. Fucking. Fucking. (see “Give or get?” above)
  21. Licking or sucking?     Sucking.
  22. Kiss or touch?     Kiss. I love kissing.
  23. Tickle or spank?     Spank. Tickling? Are you some kind of sadist?
  24. Spit or swallow?     Swallow. It’s a manners thing.
  25. Vibration or penetration?      Penetration. Vibration gets me to orgasm, but penetration is a more…holistic experience.
  26. Once or twice? Or seven times?     Seven times. Or as many times as you can make it.
  27. Fast or slow?     Fast. But I don’t know what you have in mind, or what fast or slow mean to you.
  28. Hard or soft?     Hard.
  29. Hairy or bald/shaved?     Do you mean oneself or one’s partner? For myself I prefer closely trimmed rather than completely hairless. For my partner I prefer less rather than more hair in the pubic area, because it’s simply more pleasant for oral, but leave the hair on the rest of the body alone.
  30. Big or small?     Big or small what? Cock? All cocks look big to me, but I know from experience that some cocks are too big to be immediately ecstasy causing for me. Body type? What do you mean by big or small?
  31. Tall or short?      See above on body type. I prefer my partner to be my height or above. That’s probably the only criterion, and that’s not even hard and fast.
  32. Natural or made up?      Natural.
  33. Gloss or lipstick?      Gloss.
  34. Perfume/cologne or not?      Not. I like perfume, but in moderation, and I have very definite taste, so it’s easier to just go without. This is doubly true for my partner. I prefer the smell of clean, without any added scents.
  35. Now?    Now.
  36. Later?  Later.

Holy Dark

•11/21/2012 • Leave a Comment

His body is a furnace, stoked by sex, and I have been cold forever.  Moored close and tight, I seek his profligate heat. My head is against his chest, and the thump of his heartbeat syncs with the throb of blood in my skull.   He has my leg trapped between his, and my thigh rests against his groin and I can feel his cock, warm and alive.  He nuzzles the clean dampness of my skin, kissing my head, playing with my hair.

We talk as we play; it’s wayward conversation, full of happy potential.  Words are, after all, the mortar of our relationship.  In this, as in almost everything we share, he leads and I follow.  He is quick, nimble and unexpected – never too clever to catch, always too clever to anticipate.  In the shared cocoon of coupled bodies and layers of blankets, there is a sense of quietude, of contentment. I am utterly relaxed.

He likes to keep me unbalanced, I think, and discomfited.  And so I am a little vexed but not surprised when he abruptly pushes me onto my back. He grabs my bent legs above the knee and spreads them wide.  I fuss a little, wordlessly.  His response is immediate and unequivocal:  he leans down into me, his thighs pressing mine open to the point of pain.  One hand circles my throat, high up just under the jaw; the other is beside my head, tangled in my hair.  He whispers, “I am going to fuck you.”

The world becomes irrelevant.  Everything – play, vexation, comfort, heat, light, eveything – is eclipsed by the shadow of need that moves over me.   He smells it, senses the dissolution of mindfulness.

He straightens his body away from mine.  Intent now, his predator’s eyes watch me as his swollen cock crowds my cunt.  He presses in slowly, allowing only the head to penetrate before he withdraws.  Again and again, gauging my readiness, but teasing me as well.

This is not what I want.  I feel myself getting more slick with impatient arousal.  I flex around him, contracting and relaxing my cunt in time with his forays, gauging his readiness and teasing him.  Almost, almost he stays expressionless, but I see his pleasure in the flaring of his nostrils and the tightening of his eyes.

He doesn’t like it, doesn’t like that I’ve elicited a response that he has not wholly permitted.   He lowers himself so that we are once more skin-to-skin.  My hands are free and I run them down his body, relishing the sensation of stroking him: shoulders, back, flanks, the bunching muscles of his ass as he fucks me.

At first, it is rhythmic; measured and full of intent.  The pleasure builds and the rhythm dissolves, until he reaches some level of arousal known only to him, and abruptly, he pulls away and sits back on his heels.  He does this again and again – fucking me hard, then disengaging.  In the interstices, he dances quickly from one rough game to the next: now biting my breast until I am crying, now straddling my face, pinning my arms with his knees and pushing his cock into my mouth.

And then, while he is fucking me again, smooth and deep, his breath warm against my cheek, his body catches him unawares.  A small, animal yelp of surprise and he burrows into my neck, latching on with lips and teeth, a frenzy of motion.  Jolting shudders wash over his body and I feel the warm spurts filling me and the rapid tattoo of his heartbeat against my chest.

He comes to  a stop, ending in breathy moans.  When his breathing quiets, he shifts his body and wraps his legs and arms around me and pulls me tight and close against him.

Finally, I am warm.

Quotes

•08/18/2012 • Leave a Comment

“If we were very happy we would be like cats — we would lick ourselves and then sleep and eat and probably we would be much happier. But we would be cats.”

Author and filmmaker Marjane Satrapi, on the subject of pain and creativity; NPR Interview, August 18, 2012

Entr’acte

•01/20/2012 • 2 Comments

An old story of mine in a new interpretation, and a nod to Trekkers and Mel Brooks fans everywhere.

http://sonicerotica.com/entracte/

Enjoy!

A Fantasy Out of Season

•09/24/2011 • Leave a Comment

Night comes early in midwinter at these latitudes, but he had left the drapes open and the lamps unlit.  The fierce cold brilliance of the solstice moon illuminated the darkness in shards of white light; the blinking strands of bulbs on the Christmas tree in the corner and the leaping flames in the fireplace provided a multi colored counterpoint to the starkness of the moonlight.  He knew that, despite the gloom, there was enough of a glow to make the interior of the room visible to any one of his neighbors who cared to look through the tall windows that ran the length of two walls.

The thought to take her like this had been impromptu, so he hadn’t used any of the many purpose-made restraints he’d collected over the years.  Being well dressed came in handy, he thought, as he regarded the woman at his feet.

What he wanted most to do was rip the clothing from her, but having her make herself vulnerable was so much more effective an approach.  So, though her resistance was clear in the controlled insolence of every movement, he’d made her strip down to her knickers.

Her knickers were pointless as cover ups anyway, since they were pale and sheer and very brief, but he liked the variety of a clothed and unclothed thrashing.  At some point, once she was whimpering or maybe even squealing a bit, he would remove them and stuff them in her mouth as a gag.

After binding her wrists behind her back with his tie, he grabbed her by the nape of her neck and put her on her knees.  It was his favorite position for her, even more so when she was being so quietly mutinous.  His handkerchief served as a blindfold.  She was a little frightened of blindfolds, and he liked to use this fear to put her more deeply in a receptive frame of mind.

She was already trembling a little under his hand as he pushed her upper body down across the large leather ottoman.  Whether the cause was anger or fear or even anticipation, he couldn’t tell.  It hardly mattered anyway; he was going to do what he wanted regardless.

A small pillow from the sofa provided a cushion for her knees against the hard wood of the floor and raised her ass just a bit higher.  He bent and slipped his hand down inside her knickers.  He rubbed the pale soft flesh in slow circles, then slid his fingers down through the cleft of her ass to her cunt and stroked between her legs.

When she began to move her hips and make small mewling sounds, he stood and unbuckled his thin leather belt.  There was a muffled clink of metal and she froze.  He waited; she knew what the next sound in the sequence would be, and delaying it a bit would heighten her anxiety.  He wondered how long he could leave her like that, whether this might be a tactic to try later –  keeping her in agonized suspense until her resistance broke and she begged him to go on.  She would hate the irony of it, and that would make it infinitely more enjoyable.

The belt made a snappish sound as he pulled it quickly through the loops.  He drew it down through his hand a couple of times, fast, so that the flexing tip made thin whippy noises.  She had raised herself slightly off the ottoman; her entire upper body was twisting back and forth in a silent but emphatic negative.

He stooped and pushed her down again.  With her face turned against the pillowy surface, she could only move her head  slightly, but what she was communicating was still obvious.  It both amused and aroused him that she refused to speak, to beg or plead or even ask.  That would come soon enough, and despite her best efforts to prevent it.

He watched her as he folded the belt, unfolded it, then wrapped the buckle end  around his hand.  She stretched her bound hands down towards her ass, an attempt to protect herself from what she knew was coming.

“Don’t you dare,” he said, and she recrossed her hands and pulled them up to the small of her back.

His cock was rigid, pulsing against the confines of his trousers, and already seeping.  It amazed him sometimes that he could reach this level of arousal without really having touched her in any overtly sexual way.  Knowing that he could put her in this place, her place, by sheer force of will; that he could  drive her implacably into submission despite herself, compelling her to confront her own submissiveness and abandon all that cool detachment and self control; that he could bring her to such a state that she didn’t know whether she wanted him to stop or to go on – just knowing he had such control over her was sufficient to make him crazy hard.

He raised his arm.  This moment of stillness, a tableau of anticipation; it was like that second just before orgasm broke over him.  All that bursting energy poised to come crashing down, roaring through his veins like a tsunami.  She tensed, his excitement brushing her senses like a physical thing.

He moved; then, the only sound was the whistle of the belt as it sliced through the air.

 
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